it always comes back to journaling or diaries or something of that nature. When life gets us down, and people are not as available or trustworthy as our inner confidential needs require; there is always a journal; a diary, a blog, a piece of construction paper, SOMETHING. Occasionally; we, as humans, just need to let it all out. This keeps us from bottling up all of our negativity, and letting it poison us from the inside out.
This is exactly what i have been doing; and its time to stop. So, after 5 years.... yes its been 5 years... crazy!
... i am returning to the basics. letting it all out. This is my safe place. If you are reading this and dont like something; too bad. This was started as a place for me to vent and share the ups and downs of motherhood...
my version of motherhood has changed alot in the last 5 years. Going back and reading the few posts i did have here made me meloncholy... the marraige failed, and so did the 'amazing' boyfriend i had after that. what i did get out of it was another beautiful child. A girl who i raise by myself because he tuned out to be NOT SO AWESOME.
I live a life of Autism Awareness, ADHD kids, and princess dresses. The kids are now ages 10, 8, and 5. and i am officially OLD... i feel old too. Work, kids, and everything in between has just taken the life right out of me. i hope to find my way back into social society some day; but for now, its nose to the grindstone; and getting shit done.
stephanie
